Out of control
Falling and rolling on a downward fall
Beaten and bruised beyond repair
Tears and pain fill my soul
Life right now, I feel is beyond my control.
One step forward and ten steps back
Around and around repeating it all; like a never ending ball
Stress and fear consuming my every thought
I cannot bring myself out of this deep black hole.
Head under water and an anchor on my feet
Drowning & gasping for air
All I want is to get my head above water; to be able to breath.
Finding a way to make it better
Needing the sun to shine and the water to drain
So I can simply break free of the anchor and walk away.
I’ve got to find a way because they need me
But how do I pull up when I’m so far under yet again?
Breaking free is a must and giving up is not something I can do
I can’t take this feeling of being out of control; I’ll find a way.
No more. No more…
Out of control
{{{{ I don’t write poems anymore, though I used too. This just came to me bcause of how I’m feeling. I don’t need any judgements on it because it will only make my day worse. But as always please feel free to leave your comments and suggestions. 🙂 }}}}}}
P.S I’m sure I’ll be OK…just one of those days.